Bedtime

May. 26th, 2009 09:26 pm
aide: (山ピ → Peace Out Bitch)
The bras (well, at least one of them) Anna bought me in Abu Dhabi are wonderful.  I haven't felt this well supported in a long time.  My period is coming, my breasts are really tender today.  Like, borderline painful.  Just have to make sure I don't accidentally run into anything.

I need to go get my nails fixed/redone or taken off.  They are growing out like crazy.  Fuck, why does everything have to happen this month?  

I still haven't heard from mom.  I think I might call on Sunday before I call Alison... although I don't think I have enough minutes for that.  And my bill is going to be astronomical as it is.  But I am really starting to wonder what the hell is going on there.  I kind of hope that she isn't home on a Saturday night and I can just leave a message on the answering machine. 

Yeah, it's 930 and I am totally going to bed.

gudsfdfadf

May. 18th, 2009 06:48 am
aide: (大野 ・相葉 → Bitch slapped)
I'm still half asleep... I managed to drop off around 1, I think.  My eyes are still red as fuck from sleeping with my contacts in Saturday night.  Shit.  I wonder how long this is going to last?  It's never usually lasted more than a day.  I can definitely forsee myself sneaking off for a nap sometime today. 

I don't know who it is, but my neighbours get visitors at the ungodliest hours of the day.  It's not the first time I've heard the wife talking to someone before 7am.  
aide: (大野 → The Artist)
I don't know if I fell asleep. I tossed and turned all night. I think I was thinking about fic which always prevents me from sleeping. I woke up to check my phone and didn't even realize the alarm was going off. I feel alright but I can see myself crashing after lunch, as per usual.

At least I didn't sleep in.

I thought I had gotten some love this morning when I see thirteen new emails downloading. It was my fucking aunt sending me goddamn forwarded emails. Six forwards and no real email. What the hell is that shit? I can't even say I'm not related to this one. Because I am. I thought she was more intelligent and socially adjusted than her deadbeat husband but I guess I was mistaken. If you aren't going to write me even a short note once and a while, I'd rather not hear shit from you at all.
aide: (大野 → Pouty)
I want to write something but I have nothing.  I have a few AU's I'd like to play with but I don't have anything other than the universe.  No story, to events, nothing.  I want to do something new... teachers or a corporation or a restuarant.  It shouldn't be this hard, I have real life experience with 2/3 of those situations.  I want something hilariously ridiculous like JPod (or [livejournal.com profile] misticloud's office!NEWS) but it's been done before.  I don't want to just... reproduce.  I could write a bit more Baby fic but I don't feel compelled to do that either.  I guess this is Writer's Block.

Another disgustingly lazy day for me.  I went to sleep around 3am and got up at 1pm.  I'm going to have a tough time breaking this habit.  What's going to suck hard is that I'll have to get up stupidly early on Friday just to go into work and do aisatsu and that's it.  No lessons, nothing important.  Just go say hi to people.  Well, I'll be able to give away those Korean sweets I bought and get those out of my fridge finally.  But then it's the weekend and I'll be back to my bad old sleep habits.  My life is so hard.

My bio-rhythm is off, I think.  And I haven't had a proper meal in... well.  I can't remember so that's not a good sign.  I was flipping through my Betty Crocker cookbook today and found some really tasty things I'd love to make but I have neither the equipment to do it nor the space to store it afterwards.  I haven't eaten anything but cheese and crackers today which might (definitely) be contributing to my blah mood.

My room is getting messy since I haven't gone anywhere in days (except for my little jaunt to Ebisu last night).  Even though its nearly 5, maybe I should throw some laundry in.  It might make me feel somewhat productive.

aide: (ニノ → Woe!)
So, I didn't want to believe I was becoming one of those people that got hit by hayfever or whatever but around my 2nd spring in Vancouver I noticed my eyes got really itchy and would get sneezy for a few weeks.  It was a real bitch because I couldn't wear my contacts.  I went to the doctor on my 3rd summer and he asked if I had allergies and I said no.  His response was, well, now you do.  :(  I was fine last spring here, but it's back again.  My eyes feel like sand paper and my nose is kind of runny.  I feel fine otherwise (my cough is pretty much gone now) so I know it's not a cold.  My eczema is back and raging but I think that's more related to my inability to stop scratching to let the damn shit heal.  I saw a commercial for these allergen blocker eye drops so I'm going to try and look for them today.  The ones I have don't do anything special; it feels good for about a minute and then it's back to itchy again.  

I'm awake before noon.  I actually woke up at 930 on my own but it was Andrew's fucking spamming from his 日大入学式 at Budokan that made me get up.  Not only that, but Blake and Ben's responses that were also sent to me.  Well, it's for the best.  I should be able to get to bed around 11 tonight (not 3:30 again) and get up on time to go sign my new contract.  I hope it doesn't take an hour like last time...

I've been rereading Harry Potter porn.  There was this one I remember that I really wanted to read again but of course, don't have it bookmarked so I don't know if I'll ever find it again (or where I even read it in the first place, it's been a while).  It's not exactly what I was in the mood for, but I am not finding it in JE fandom right now.

My new DVD player is ace.  I have to watch Swing Girls and then I can go out and do my errands.
aide: (大野 → My Anti-drug)
It seems like everyone is a little down these days.  It's that time of year for students: on the final stretch with a week and a half to go before finals start, writing term papers that should have been started a month ago or getting ready to take that first step back to school or into society.  As for us working types... I don't know what the deal is.  Maybe we're just absorbing that stress from everyone else. 

I went to the doctor today.  He confirmed my suspicion that it was an infection though he tried to tell me it was an infected corn.  I don't have corns!  It was a blister though I can't remember from where but I had one on my other foot in the same place.  No matter how broken in my converse sneakers are, they still rub the wrong way sometimes.  Anyway, I'm all bandaged up with some isodine gel and antibiotics and I need go back on Thursday for a check-up.  I should actually go this time... all the other times he's said to go back, I don't because whatever was hurting me stopped.  I've got to bandage up my toe tomorrow after my shower in the morning.  That'll be interesting since I can't really wear my shoe.  I might have to take my flip flops to work.  There goes my plans to run... I went twice last week and I probably won't be able to go again until after Korea.  

I think we're going to try having a hanami party on Saturday.  Ariel wants to wear yukata (though it's kind of early?).  If she's off on Friday we'll go to Asakusa and look there.  I said I'd lend her the ties and an obi since I have a few extras to cut down the cost for now.  I'll just have to teach her to wear it.  It'll be easy for her because she's got the skinny Asian body.  That would be nice since I only go to wear my yukata twice last year.  I would wear my kimino if I had all the stuff put it together with.  I should look on Friday.

Early to bed and hopefully early to rise.  Let's all feel better soon, shall we?  Spring is coming!
aide: (大野 → Unimpressed)
It's not looking good at all... worse than yesterday.  Even taking my sock off hurt. DX  So I'm going to not run today and soak it for a little while... the only cream I have is some neosporin that I don't know how old it is but it will have to do.  I don't even know what to ask for at the pharmacy.  I'll see how that works and then if it's the same, I'll go to the doctor tomorrow and get some meds for it.  I don't want to deal with this in Korea.  I kind of want to take a picture of it but... that's even too gross for me.

I'm going to cook salmon today.  They had some Atlantic at the store so I got a couple slices.  And miso soup!  I should get that going so that I can eat during NepLeague.  There is no NepLeague tonight!  Or next week.  The next broadcast is April 6th.  Noooo.  Not fair.  Well, it's a good thing I'll have 2 episodes of Voice and 1 of Kami no Shizuku in an hour when they finish downloading.  Odori is the guest on Shukudai tonight.  I might pass. 

Time to get cooking.

aide: (Sorry. Emo time.)
I don't even want to go through my flist.  I read friends' blogs but there's too much on the comms.  I'm not in the best headspace for that.  I hate having head colds.  I want some fucking over the counter goddamn cold meds that don't cost 20$.  I want some sudafed or neocitron.  I have a very slight fever of 99.9.  I will have nothing going on today but it's too much of a bitch trying to call in sick to work and it's not worth the hassle.  I can stay in the teacher's room all day and nap or read and be fed and stay warm but I would really rather stay at home and in bed.  If my fever goes up (I'll take my thermometre with me) and I really start to feel shitty, I'll go home.  It wouldn't do to infect the other teachers (though they've probably got it already anyway).  Why the hell am I the only one sick?  Unless I picked it up at Ni Shou from some kid but it was a bit slow to show itself for that I think.  

Why is my life so unfair?  命は超ずるい。 And I'm all blocked up with gross thick yellow snotttt.  And I can't decide if I'm hungry or nauseous.  And my period was supposed to start on Friday so it's going to be a fucking party today.
aide: (Default)
Thank you Lydia!!

Your parcel got delivered this morning which I think might be a first. The stupid post office always delivers shit during the week when I'm not home but I got lucky this time! I'm so excited to cook mee goreng! And have the merlion on my keys with Yamapi. Haha. I'll put something together to send you. :)

Today I have an appointment with the doc in Hiroo at 2. So I've got a couple hours to putter at home (CLEAN UP HEATHER, GOD) before I ship out. I can't decide if having an appointment earlier is better or not. Half the time I'm late but then if I make it at 4 or 5 I lose to will to get up and go out. If only the clinic wasn't so far away... I usually make a day of it and meet up with Andrew afterwards to make the most of my train fare but I haven't today. I don't really feel like hanging out? I want some me time. After my two parties, I want to just vegetate and maybe not eat for a while.

I am going to work on OT5 today. I've got a few things to update and I also want to get the HTML validated. I asked my most to take a look and she said it could be because I'm not closing the P tags. I never thought that mattered. My CSS is perfect though. :) I also read this artcle at Smashing Magazine so I'm going to tweak a few things like the page titles, even though I'm using frames.

Edit: Well! That only took... over an hour. I didn't realize HTML was so fickle. Like, really. Even if you don't use the alt tag, you still have to put it in. Any, all of my code is perrrrrrfect now! And I have 20mins to get ready to leave the house. >_>;;
aide: (大野 → My Anti-drug)
I skipped wearing my nightgaurd last night to do a little experiement and my jaw hurts less today without it.  Maybe that's the problem?  Maybe my teeth have moved since the last time I used it.  They aren't looking as straight as they used to! O_O  Nooo!  All those years of orthodonticsssss.  When I get on a good health/dental plan I'm going to see about getting a retainer or something to straighten them out again, just that little bit.  They don't need to be perfect but I don't want them to get any worse.  Maybe I will just stop wearing the gaurd then.  It seems to be doing more harm than good. 

Mail from K this morning.  Seeing him is going to be hard.  Being the last stretch of school and then he'll be starting to work as a nurse.  From what I know from Patrina, it's pretty grueling shift work (at least in Canada) and he'll probably want to see his friends on his days off.  I don't even know.  Let's not get ahead of ourselves. 

Today is going to suck majorly.  A full day of grade 5 and then club.  I'm basically just going to repeat the club activity from last time.  Grade 3 are doing their "club visit" today to see what clubs they want to join next year.  Andrew's party starts at 630/7 but I'll probably show up late and then leave early.  I've decided not to drink tonight.  We're supposed to BYOB or something to share and I was going to bake but I haven't perfected that recipe yet.  I'm going to try a different recipe tomorrow and see how that goes.  And I will stop by Jusco on the way home from work and splurge on a scale and steamer.  It will be worth it in the end if I end up baking/cooking more.  I need to measure the size of my pot though so that it fits.

God is it really Friday already?  Where the fuck did the week go?
aide: (翔 → WTF)
So, these drugs aren't working.  It is starting to hurt all the time.  It was hurting to chew dinner last night and it was only chicken.  Even on the right side of my mouth.  I don't have any food to eat and I'm supposed to take these pills with food... but I'm not going to.  At least not breakfast.  I am going to swing by the dentist tonight and make an appointment.  I can feel the swelling.  This is not pleasant.  I suppose I should tell mom what's going on, even though it will do nothing but make her worry. 

I really don't like this.

And in typical me fashion, the only thing I can think is, "This going to impede giving head," rather than "This is going to reduce the quality of my life."  

I am feeling so helpless.  Even doctors won't be able to do anything.  It's not like you can just replace what's broken like a knee or a hip from what I've read (which, albeit, isn't much).  I've got 3 lessons today and they are stacked up in the morning.  I don't know if they will let me leave early if I ask since I feel like I've been doing that a lot lately, which isn't even true.  Maybe I can ask Jun to call the dentist for me and see if I need to make an appointment or if I can just go in anytime, and how much a consultation is going to set me back.  Although, I don't even know if he'll be able to tell me anything that I couldn't have figured out on my own.  As useless as it may be, I want an x-ray done.

They say this is caused by stress... how can I not stress out about this?  It's a fucking endless circle.  A vicious cycle.

And to make things even better, I'm being watched by Tatsuya today.  Even though he's well-meaning, even when he has nice things to say, he sounds patronizing.  That's just the way he talks, I guess.  I hope he doesn't have bad things today about my activity today. :/  I don't need that kind of bullshit now.  I think last time I was sick so at least that won't have changed when he asks, "How are you?"

aide: (大野 ・相葉 → Bitch slapped)
I don't even have anything interesting or noteworthy to say here but I feel the need to post.  That's a bad sign.

I've got 4 lessons today if Kaneko shows up.  Only two if he doesn't.  I wonder if it's going to be another gongshow like December.  I don't want to go through that again.  It sounds really awful but... They don't pay me enough for that.  And I'm not really in a position to make demands, especially not to the school because I'm not even employed by them.  And the company could care less what I actually do everyday as long as no one complains about me.

Speaking of the company... I think Tatsuya is coming today.  If not today, then Thursday.  Tomorrow is a holiday!  And as retarded as I think it is having a day off in the middle of the week, I'm kind of glad for it.  I can stay up and watch CSI: Miami after Mei-chan. 

I spent the day yesterday making up activities for the firsties.  I haven't shown them to Imai-sensei yet.  She'll probably give me "Heather time" today in class since 1-3 is pretty ahead of the rest of the classes so I think they are done.  I think I'll bring my stuff for Go to Sleep, Wake Up and one of the worksheets I made.  Last time he gave me crap for using big words and not demonstrating the instructions.  I know I have to do that even more for 1st year but I don't half of the time.  But they are picking up my instructions pretty easily now.  I hope.

I think these drugs are doing something.  I wasn't in a terrible lot of pain last night when I was watching Cashmere Mafia (so good!) and wasn't hyper aware of the tension in my jaw so that's a good thing.  I suppose I should write mom and tell her the latest as well.  I don't know what she'll say, maybe she'll look up some homeopathic stuff.  Or say, "Suck it up, tough break," since nothing can really be done.  I don't even know.  If it's still hurting by next week, I'm going to ask him to do an x-ray.  I want to know what the hell is going on.
aide: (大野 → Ohno Approved!)
I went to the doctor (and was in and out in under an hour!) and he gave me some anti-inflamatory drugs to take for a week and told me to try those and come back. He said sometimes there's inflamation and sometimes not, which I read on Wikipedia, so we'll see. Hopefully they work. He also referred me to his dentist friend. I asked if he speaks English and Tomita-sensei's response was, "I think, yes, he's a very gentle person." Haha... alright? I'll take that. I guess. I'll drop in on Saturday after seeing how these drugs work and see if I can get in before Tomoko's party.

I made it home just in time for Neptune League and the Mei-chan cast are on it! It's also a 2-hour special. I'm super excited. :D But they aren't on until the second half. I wish that Arashi would go on this show. They have the right number of people for a team! Maybe I'll write that as a fic. I want to see Sho and Jun get frustrated with the stupidity of Ohno and Aiba. XD

Also rented some DVDs. 3 discs of CSI:Miami Season 3 and the first disc of Cashmere Mafia. That's a new one so I had to pay more but Lucy Liu is in itttt. ♥ But I have to return it tomorrow. I wonder if I'll be able to watch it all before Zero at 11?
aide: (Sorry. Emo time.)
Drinking is evil.  Why do I do this to myself?  At least we followed the rules of the night: 1. No barfing.  2. No crying.  And Ariel got hit on so she was happy though looked totally uncomfortable.  Roppongi is a dive and I don't know why we go there.  They are like miniature, sub-par, over-priced versions of the (straight) clubs in Canada.  Where do all the Japanese people go?  No Roppongi, that much is apparent.  Maybe I'll text Mia (if I still have her contact) and ask her for recommendations for the next time.  I think we should go to Shibuya.  And no heels despite what Ariel says.  No one hits on me regardless of the come-fuck-me heels.

Anyway... I feel like total shit.  My stomach is doing somersaults and my head hurts for more than one reason.  The left joint of my jaw has been bothering me for almost a week now.  It's kind of worrying.  I was told by my dentist to get this night gaurd because I clench and grind my teeth when I sleep aparently and if I didn't curb it I would eventually grind my jaw down into my brain or something.  Whatever the reason, it was not pleasant.  I don't wear it as much as I should but I started again when my jaw started to bug me but it hasn't helped.  It hurts to open my mouth wide and it even bugged me when I was singing at karaoke last night.  Okay, it's really worrying me.  I asked Yvo what she knows about dental here and if the health insurance covers anything and emailed Nikki about when she went to the dentist here for her root canal.  I hope it's not arthritis or anything chronic like that.  I'm only twenty four.  I'm afraid to google because it will probably make me freak out more.  It's not like I can just not use my jaw for a while and rest it, what with the work I do.

Time for some painkillers and maybe a bit of dying.  

Filters

Feb. 3rd, 2009 10:15 pm
aide: (大野 → Bow down to the King)
No, I'm not flist cutting.  But I went through and sorted out flist filters so I don't have to read so much crap on my flist.  And took off LOLcats.  They aren't so funny anymore.  It's just spam.  I don't know.  I'm wondering if I should be more selective and filter what I write about.  I don't bother to protect many entries and I mostly just write about stupid shit anyway but... I don't know.  Having 50 relative strangers reading what I write who seldom say anything, while slightly thrilling--it's like being a real writer!  You never know who's buying and reading your stuff--is mostly creepy.  I actually don't talk about Arashi/fandom that much (and these days it's mostly to bitch about idiocy) and I don't think I'm that interesting.  I don't even post fic here, I just whine about writing it. 

What's even more creepy is having random people add my Vox blog to their neighbourhoods or send me messages about Arashi on there because I've only mentioned them about 3 times there ever.  Where do these people find me?  And of course they never respond when I reply to them.  

In totally non-LJ related things, I'm trying to sell my old camera on Craigslist but the only people contacting me are shady people (who can't write proper fucking emails either) wanting to buy it for their cousin/sister somewhere overseas.  Even if it wasn't for all the notices about selling locally to avoid scams, I'm just too fucking lazy.  You want to buy from me?  Don't tell me to set up a Paypal account so you can pay.  You should be asking me what payments I accept.  I don't think I'm going to find anyone to buy it... I wonder if I can just give it away somewhere.  Or maybe sell it to Hardoff!  I should try that tomorrow.

Holy fucking shit. 
My hormones are fucking raging today.  I thought PMS was pre-menstrual?  I'm just bitchy the whole time.  And these cramps are not helping.

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So, I got sick. What's new? The kids are all hacking and gross so I was bound to catch it. But why is it that everytime I get sick it seems to turn into an ear infection? And why only on the left side? I'm hoping it's just the pressure in my sinuses blocking it off so we'll see how things go tomorrow and Monday. I can't go to the doctor until Tuesday unless I get off my butt and go today which isn't going to happen. I'm going to be super pissed if it's worst on Monday because I'm going to see Brian Setzer with Ariel. ♥ I'm so excited!! I wonder if we'll be the youngest people there. Or what they're even going to perform. I don't even know any of the new stuff. I don't care. I'm going to have to escape work about 10 minutes early so I can catch the bus and get to Harajuku before 6pm.

Edit 28592: The show doesn't start til 7, the doors just open at 6:30. That means I don't have to worry about rushing. And I found a seating chart: we're on the 2nd floor at the 2nd last row! DDD: That sucks!! I think I paid for the more expensive seats too? Maybe. I can't remember. I bought them in December and if I got such crappy seats, it means the show must have almost been sold out. They added another show tomorrow night for a total for 4 nights in Tokyo actually.

I just realized that the only album of the BSO I have is from 2000. D:

Man, I can't even tell if they are dancing East Coast or Lindy Hop. They're feet are so fast. I wish I had danced more... Kevin and I were actually pretty good. Hopefully he plans to settle semi-permanently in Vancouver (or he'll be there when I get back) so we can start dancing again on a regular basis. Though, I'm sure there's a swing club or something in Toronto as well. It's been a good 3-4 years since I danced, I think. :(

I've got my kanji test tomorrow and I'm going to review at some point today. I've reached the point where I am confident about passing and therefore don't feel the need to study anymore but there are still a few I don't get most of the time so I will cram tonight. Hopefully I'll have finished writing my present for [livejournal.com profile] oviparous who I think I want to make my new best friend.

The giant storm seems to have stopped, that's a plus. It looked like a typhoon this morning.

Got all my bank cards back (except for my RBC debit but I don't use it anyway). I can go pick up my gaijin card in 2 weeks and then I'll be right again. More or less. I feel incomplete without my driver's license even though it's not valid in Japan and expires on my birthday anyway. :( But this means I can get a better picture next time. :D
aide: (Sorry. Emo time.)
So, I slept for 5 hours tonight and I'm already feeling sleepy and it's only 1am. What the fuck is going on? Maybe it's one of my regular bouts of depression? Or I have whatever Justin had. He slept all day yesterday and I pretty much did the same thing today. I wonder if I try to sleep now if I'll wake up at something stupid like 5am. But I have to wait for this damn download before I can turn in.
aide: (大野 → Bow down to the King)
So I slept for 12 hours, woke up and felt like I was going to die with a fever of 102 but now it's down in the 99 range and I don't feel like barfing at the thought of food or moving.  :D  Just a slight headache.  So I'll go to Nikki's shindig for a while and then come home.  Tomorrow is my furoshiki class with Andrew.  I'm really excited for that.  I'm going to try and talk him into taking shuji classes somewhere... if I can find them.  I should get him to call that place I walk past everyday and see what their deal is.  I'm sure there are others around, maybe closer to his side of town but now that he's gotten accepted to Jochi Univ (yaaaaay!), he'll be really studying next year so I don't think he'll have lots of free time for calligraphy. :(

Final Fantasy is pissing me off.  I keep fucking dying and I don't like it.  It took me 4 attempts to beat that douche on top of Mt Ordeals and that was with help.  I'm going to have to look up out to beat this turtle douche cuz I'm running short on patience.  I hate when they throw a bunch of bosses at you without a chance to power up or save. 

Saw the CM preview for Uta no Oniisan--- GOLD.  I'M GOING TO LOVE IT.  :D  There was a preview for something else starting the same day on TBS I saw last night but I can't remember what time or what it's called but I thought, 'That looks cool!'  I'll have to do research.  Ryuusei episode 8 is out with subs and they said they would try to get 9 out this weekend?  Or at least translated.  That's dedication.  Excitement!

Things I want to write/have written in honour of Hey! Hey! Hey! on Monday:
Britney/Jun S&M fun
Britney/Kumi
Um... Britney/Kuu/Jun?  That's the new hotness.  You know I'm talking to you.  ;D  If my brain didn't feel like it was going to leak out my ears, I would attempt something.  But I promised myself to write Eq first before anything else. 
aide: (大野・相葉 → Bitch slapped)
I have a nasty sore throat all of a sudden and I've been sneezing a lot since yesterday. 

This better not be the flu or something like that. 

I don't have time for that kind of bullshit.
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I have an urge to watch some MagoMago episodes.  Now that my Japanese skill has shot way up since the last time I watched, I think I can appreciate it more.  But fucking Arashian Files is still fucked up.  Should I email the girl who runs it?  Maybe.  She hasn't updated since May.  Everytime I check back I see the date and think, "Oh, maybe isn't that long ago."  But then I remembered, it's December.  So yes.  Maybe an email is in order.  

I don't even have any Top Model to watch. 

It's 8:15pm and I'm ready to hit the hay.  How terrible is that?  But maybe if I'm asleep by 9, I won't sleep through the alarm at 6.  Arashi singing isn't enough to wake me up anymore apparently.  I need a new alarm tone.  And where is my goddamn period?  I hate not being on the pill for this reason.  I have never been regular in my entire life and apparently, I won't be anytime soon.  Oh, my life.



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