I feel like I left my brain in Sleepy Land.

I feel kind of ill... like in the "I haven't slept for 24+ hours" kind of way which is total bull since I went to sleep at 10:30 last night.  My body clock is fighting the adjustment, obviously.  I even missed the return of the Momo hair!  Although, pinning the fringe back is something girls do, Junko.  I speak as an authority on the subject.  I can't wait to see this in action.  

Holy crap.  Obama plushie.

I planned to get up at 6 so I could make breakfast but that idea bombed.  I should get something in me that isn't from the convenience store.  I bought yogurt and cereal at the grocery store yesterday.  I should make it my habit to go to the Maruetsu across the street from school right after work.  It's a pretty decent store, not cheap but no more expensive than any of the others.  At least the produce is fresh.  It does mean I have to carry it home but if I make a point of going every day or two I won't have that much to buy at any one time unless I'm planning a feast of sorts.  I can never be bothered to go out again once I get home and Matsuzakaya, though close, is kind of off the beaten path.  [/Random]

Two more sessions of Quiz Show today?  I feel so techy with that laptop.  It's tiny with a touch screen and pen, and wireless compatibility with the projector.  The speakers kind of suck but oh well.  They worked well enough yesterday.

Need to install new mood theme.  This one is boring me.  I have Aiba or Ohno saved somewhere.

Question

Was there this much whining about Jun going to the States for the Last Princess screening?  I think not.  But maybe I blocked it out.

I think I might be the only person who likes Jun's new hair.  Cuz it's the hair I want. :>  Only in Japan can boys pull of those kinds of hairstyles better than girls (aka me).

I'm hungry.  I should cook now I guess.  I'm going to concoct chicken spinach gratin from scratch, of my own invention.  Or rather, changing a recipe I already have.  I just hope the chicken is still good.

I feel icky.

I don't know why I torture myself. I was stalking people on Facebook, old friends and people who I haven't added but went to high school with or university etc etc. So many of them are either a) still dating the person they were dating 2-3 years ago, b) are engaged, b) are married or d) have kids. Or some twisted combination of all of the above. It's kind of depressing... and yet I feel quite satisfied not to be tied to the same person for that long especially in this tumultous period of post-grad. And that at least I haven't gained weight since graduation. I haven't lost much if anything but I'll take that. I saw pictures of JC and his girlfriend from some holiday party and I hardly recognized him! He's got some cheeks on him now but he looks healthy and happy so that's all that matters. It's all the studying I guess. And you can't go running in the winter. I tell myself that everyday and that's why I haven't started. Yet.

It just made me think (as I am wont to do) about life changes and where I'm heading and all that. I'm not going to get into the whole relationship hang-up (again) but it made me think about that. An old friend from middle school reconnected with me and she's married and having her second baby this week. And another friend from middle school who now lives in Australia and its all pierced up with a kid (I don't know that story though). And then there's Christina but we won't get into that. Rebecca's gained weight too and looks exactly like her mom. Facebook is so devilish... I tried to get in contact with a good friend from high school way back when since we lost touch after I moved to Vancouver but she didn't even reply when I got her university issued email address from a mutual friend. It really makes me wonder... Christina, Rebecca and Nashifa are all pretty religious girls and I am fairly certain that was the driving wedge between Christina, Rebecca and I but I don't know about Nashifa. I tried to call her when I was home last but I guess she never got the message I left with her dad. Or she got it and didn't want to call me back. It's makes me sad.

All I can say is that I'm so fucking glad I left Ontario. Everyone there seems to be settling down and getting fat. And dating ugly people. Not all, but some. It just seems so poisonous. But maybe that's because it's Brampton. If I do ever move back to that pit, I will make damn sure I'm living closer to the city. Or surrounding myself with ... I don't even know if the option of people who are small-minded and backward is available. I guess I'll be reading. Lots. Or going to JC's every free moment. Move over Belinda.

Yeah, I don't know. It just got me thinking. I don't like to sound pretentious, if that's even how I should describe this, but I feel like I'm doing the most interesting thing out of most of the people I went to high school with. I might not have a fancy career or a mortgage or even a fucking car, but at least I'm not living at home anymore. Which is more than I can say for almost everyone. But then again, in Japan, that's not a bad thing.

In other news, I'm meeting an old friend from high school tomorrow for dinner in Ginza. And I have a date on Thursday. ♥