And then I realized, I'm just slutty.

I just got an email from Sachiyo, bailing out on our girly date.  Of course.  I don't think I should be surprised because it feels like she's bailed on me before.  When I make a date with someone, I don't bail.  If it's a group party thing, I might.  If it's the day of--I'll go.  I will turn down invites but I try not to bail on the day of.  I have, I won't lie.  But not when it's a one-on-one date.  Sigh.  I suppose I should be thankful because then I can go to this place that I got a 50% off coupon for and save some money.  Fuck, I would have gone out last night with Ariel and Anna if I had known this was going to happen.  Fuck.

I'm hungry.  That's probably adding to my irritation.

These sleep drugs aren't cool.  But my face doesn't hurt like yesterday so they must be working.  I am humming and hawing about what to do... eat now or nap, cook or eat out, go to Andrew's party or not.  He got called from Nihon TV and they wanted to film the hallowe'en party tonight. O_O  Talk about random!  He said he wasn't sure... Everyone at work was talking to me about the Yamanote party from last year and how it was all these "gaikokujin" (as if it was solely our fault) etc etc.  So they would probably try and link the filming to that, at worst.  I think Andrew said he was going to turn them down and just do an interview before.  I kind of hope he does that so I can actually see him on TV!  Damn NHK digital... I can't watch Cool Japan!  And he's on like every week. 


Mr Watanabe tried to buy me coffee on the way to work today.  I kind of feel guilty for not saying yes.  But I didn't really clue into the fact that he was offering to buy it for me not for himself after I'd walked past.  I kind of hope he'll offer it to me again.  I'm not special!  No need to buy me coffee!

I'll try calling Andrew again and then nap.  I'll go.  I missed out on Ben's party and it looks like they had fun.  Justin and I will leave together.  That is, if he doesn't get shitfaced.

Goddamn neighbour came by AGAIN.  She came by this morning when I was getting ready for work so I told her to fuck off cuz I didn't have time.  Well, not to "fuck off" exactly but she wouldn't have understood if I did.  She came back tonight and I had Dan and Yvonne both talk to her and even they didn't know what the fucking problem was.  I think the problem is she won't speak.  So how can I know what your deal is if you don't fucking tell me?  Managed to get out of her that she's dirt poor, lost everything and has no job, she probably has to move out of the building and something about a name check (for her? some American guy? I don't know) that she thought was next June, but it's actually this June and she has to go to Yokosuka, the American army base in Yokohama for it... and?  What do you want me to do?

So I told her I wasn't American (to which she was shocked; sorry, not all white people are Americans), I'm not this "Mr Nancy" she keeps talking about and I don't know what her problem is and I can't do anything.  She said she'll try harder by herself... I wonder.  She'll probably come back later and waste another hour of my life standing outside my door in silence.  I'm not a fucking mind reader lady.  Even if there is a language barrier, if you don't speak, no one is going to know what you want.

This whole fucking exchange took about an hour.

Am I a total insensitive asshole for getting angry?  I sure feel like one but I restrained from yelling at her because I sure as hell felt like it.  But she already looked like she was about to cry.

Well, I got 3 loads of laundry done so I wouldn't say today was especially unproductive.  And OMFG its so much easier with your own machineee.  Why did I not get around to getting one before now?  BECAUSE I AM STUPID.  It makes weird clunking noises when it starts the spin cycle, but its 10 years old and it works.  And was free.  I am not complaining.  I translated Gimmick Game and Naked today as well.  Naked was easy and Gimmick Game was fun (it helped that I had read other people's translations so I just had to put it in my own words... sort of).  I love bitter Nino.  XD 

I'm hungry but have no food.  This is a problem.  I am going to go out and return Heroes (and rent the 2nd disc, of course) and get some groceries.  Maybe I'll try Leader's eggplant thing again.  With tofu?  Tofu is yummy and oh so good for you!  And maybe a salad.  I'm severely lacking in the fibre department as of late.  I am also going to try cabonara some time this week as well.  I need a lightbulb for the kitchen but I have a feeling I have to go to a seperate store for that.  What ever happened to one-stop-shopping?  Oh right, they don't have that in Japan.

So I all day I was looking forward to going to Ohno's show and enjoying myself alone soaking in some artistic genius.  I booked it straight to the station after work at 4:30, stopping off at home to dump some crap and shed a layer (it's finally getting WARM!).  I grabbed the wrong contact case this morning, so I wanted to get that too.  I can't lie, I dressed nicely in case anyone famous (read: Arashi) happened to be at the show.  I rode the Chiyoda line for an hour and made it to Omotesando at 6:15.  I navigated my way out of the subway station and found Omotesando Hills.  It's actually a pretty area, with all the high end shops (Vitton, Gucci, Max Co, Benneton).  I found the place no problem and started to document the occasion by taking a picture of the pretty Omotesando Hills Sign.  Then I noticed a girl standing next to the stairs taking tickets from people, handing out the postcard gift.  Then I noticed the line of people down the street.  Alright, I thought.  This is fine.  It's only 6:30, it will probably take an hour to get in.  I brought a book and my phone had 3/4 batteries left for music.  The staff probably gave you a chit to get your postcard while you lined up.  I get in line, which started to move pretty quickly.  They were taking people in big groups which was a good sign that I wouldn't have to wait that long.  Highlight of the night: I was reading my book when this British dude comes up to me and asks "Excuse me, can you speak English?"  Then he asks me what the line up is for because he has no idea.  LOL!  I told him it was for an art show, and that there's an event space in the basement of Omotesando Hills.  He was thankful for the answer to his seemingly silly question.  It made me laugh and the ladies behind me probably got a kick out of it too, even if they couldn't understand. 

Then a staff guy came down the line, checking something.  People were showing him something.  He asked the girls in front of me if they had a ticket, which they didn't.  They paniced and he was only half-apologetic saying if you didn't have a ticket, you can't see the show.  Then he asked me, and of course I didn't have one.  What ticket?  No one mentioned tickets.  The girls behind me showed theirs to me and I asked where I could get one.  He said you have to show up early in the morning and line up for tickets they distrubute between 8am and 10am before the show opens for the day.  I was actually feeling a nervous on the train there, like what if Ohno was there?  What if someone else from Arashi or famous was there?  It felt like stone just dropped in my stomach.  I actually felt like crying which I admit is extremely pathetic for a 23-year-old woman.  I graciously got out of line and proceeded to cal Yvonne in Nagoya and rant to her about the retardedness of Japanese society and complain about how upset I was for half an hour.  I didn't even take time to eat anything because I went straight from work.  I tried calling Ben since I was so close to Shibuya anyway, but he didn't answer so I turned around and went back home.

I am waking up early tomorrow and showing up in Omotesando at 7am tomorrow.  I'm actually meeting a girl from the a_ra_shi comm and we're going to go geek out together, since she couldn't find anyone to go with either.  I'm assuming its the same spot outside Omotesando Hills as the line up tonight.  7am might be slightly overkill, I'd rather stand outside for an hour to get a ticket before noon than possibly having to stick around in Tokyo until 5 or 6.  Plus, it's the weekend so there will be more people going - that is people like me who have to work during the week and won't take a sick day.  I bet it's a first-come-first-served basis so hopefully we'll be one of the first ones.  I will come prepared with a new music selection, book, food, and maybe some crocheting. 

On the bright side: I did see people leaving with Ohno swag!  And copies of his book!  There is still hope.  I was pissed off when I saw some high school skanks walk past me with bags full of posters and stuff.  I want to go so badly!  I'm hoping my gung-ho spirit prevails.  Just for good karma, I made a prayer at a little shrine next to Omotesando station.  But I'm thankful my excitement got the best of me and I couldn't wait until next week to go.  If I went on Monday with Justin, I would have been totally fucked because I wouldn't have the weekend to go.  I really wanted to avoid the weekend crowds, but it can't be helped.  At least I have someone to waste the waiting time with now, even if she is a stranger.  But she's the same age as me, so we should have something in common to talk about...

I am not relishing the fact that I will be waking up at 5am tomorrow, leaving the house at 5:50, and will be on a train into the city at 6:05.  I most likely won't get to sleep until midnight or after because I'm still angry about what happened and excited about going tomorrow.  I'm also nervous because if people are as retardedly crazy as Yvonne says, we might already face a huge line up by 7am.  I don't want to get stuck with a time slot like 6:30 or something... but if that's the way it goes, so be it.  I'll be late for my own birthday party.

I'm also working on a music mix for frazzled_niya.  I unknowingly put 150 songs in the folder.. so I'm purging.  There were so many good ones!  I realized its a mix of J-pop, C-pop and Canadian rock with a dash of Big Band.  Go figure.  I'm still trying to get it down to a reasonable size since the first file would have taken 11 hours to upload. O_O

I have been reposting my blog entries from Vox into Livejournal all morning.  Why?  Because on some level, I'm masochistic.  Because I don't have anything better to do.  Even though I didn't think it would be possible, I'm getting tired of downloading Arashi no Shukudai-kun and Mago Mago Arashi.  It's partly to do with the fact I'm tired of only half understanding things.  I'm actually amazed at how much I get from context and knowing random words here an there to be able to get about 50% of the show, but its exhausting.  Getting that call from Bic Camera this morning and not understanding what this guy wanted (he quoted some number, a price maybe?) about my camera and asked me to call someone else annoyed me .  I did call that number, and asked if he spoke English (of course not) and he said he would get someone else to call me back.  I've been waiting for an hour, so I think it's time to give up and get on with my day.  Everyone is fooled into thinking that Japan is one of the most efficient countries in the world.  The house needs a sweeping, but I'm lazy.  I also need to hunt for a real table since I'd like to avoid arthritis in my hips before I'm forty.  I've re-posted about a dozen entries, and there's about fifty more to go.  Why do I do this to myself?  Because I'm crazy.  The chances of people actually reading this blog are slim to none anyway...

And why do they insist and driving around in their little trucks with a loud speaker on top blaring random irritating announcements?  On a lazy Sunday afternoon?