Actually, yes. Every blink there is pain right under my left eye because my sinuses are so swollen. It's starting to throb right under my cheek. I'm very nearly close to tears. I already knew I was going to the doctor tomorrow. I just hope it doesn't get worse before I can leave at 430. I might even try and duck out. There aren't any classes tomorrow anyway; it's the chorus contest. It's an all day affair... fuck. I'm going to bring my camera and take some pictures and video. It should be fun. My third year class did a preshow for us today instead of studying English. They didn't leave us with much choice in the matter.
I'm going to get a shitton of antibiotics (at least I freaking hope so) so that pretty much shits on any plans I had for Hallowe'en. I was still on the fence about whether to go to Andrew's party or go see Bryan et al play and drink my face off. I would probably not want to die so much at Andrews. I very much doubt the smokey bar would be very beneficial for a sinus infection. Andrew wants to go to the Yamanote party again but is humming and hawing about that. It would be fun to say I went, even for a just a couple stops, but I hate being in crowded trains regardless and I hate being around drunk fucks when I'm sober (or at least not as drunk as them) so I don't anticipate having much fun when those two things are combined. We'll see what kind of cocktail the doc dishes out tomorrow and how I'm feeling. Won't be able to drink either way and I have come to realize that I don't actually like wearing costumes. Even if everyone else is too, I still feel like a fool.
At this point, if I'm still feeling like this on Friday, I'm just gonna come home and rent a movie and stay in my bed. Maybe get pizza again. Fuck. I haven't grocery shopped in weeks. I need to do that too.
I talked with Tezuka-kun on the way home today. He used to be one of my favourites last year when he was in first year but this year it has become painfully aparent how much he sucks at English. He caught up with me on my way to the station and we talked (in Japanese) all the way there. He's a good kid, I really like him. He's got a sister in grade 5 at Ni-Shou so I'll get to see her (even though I won't know who she is) on Friday! I should have asked him if he actually likes English. He asked me where I live and how I like Kashiwa, and if I can drive... it was nice actually talking with a student. And he didn't make a fuss about me speaking Japanese like most of the time. I don't know why they can't make that leap when I can clearly understand what they are saying to me (most of the time). Anyway, it made me feel good. :)
I really don't know what I can do to make myself feel better at this point. I thought I was getting over this and was keeping my nose clean (even tho I didn't do that lavage thing... I couldn't find plain saline solution -- typical Japan). The snot was clear and thin so I thought it was getting better... now (at least on the right side) it's thick and sunflower yellow. Well, I guess this is what I get for having stayed healthy for the last six months: when it rains, it pours.
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