What's another word for depressed?

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I wanted to watch 24hr TV, I really did.  I wanted to see Jun's drama even though the medical speak would go over my head but I'm only just able to tune in now.  It's probably around 2 hours so it must be nearly over.  Hakone was fun but I only had four hours of sleep.  The onsen was fun but a bit much?  What made things worse, is that my phone died.  I also forgot the earphone attachment so I'd have to depend on subtitles on my phone's TV but then the batteries died.  I had two bars this morning but it died around 4pm.  We left Odawara on the 7.20pm train but I didn't realize it takes 3 hours to get back from there.  I saw some guy watching on this portable TV.  I knew I would miss the first part, Aiba's task I think, but I thought I would make it back for the drama.  I kind of feel like... if i can't watch from the start, why watch at all?  It'll probably be subbed in the next week or two so I could watch it then. 

To make matters worse, the weather has been crappy beyong belief.  I don't think I've seen so much water fall from the sky, ever.  It's really fitting for this drama...

"I want to die."
"So die!  It would better if you did." 

i feel like I want to cry.  I feel depressed and a bit angry at having my plans screwed up (though centred around TV: I know how lame that is) and having lack of sleep and now, after I get home, I'm starving.

It was pouring buckets when I got off the train and eventhough I had an umbrella, it was fucking useless.  It was a cloth umbrella, which dries quickly, but is by no means waterproof so I was being dripped on all the way home.  I was also soaked from the knees down.  My shoes, my feet, my shorts...  And I get home and find my fucking kitchen soaked.  My fucking exhaust leaked all over the kitchen again.  It's still pouring so it must have been worse or someone came and covered it up sometime today.  I just can't bring myself to be bothered to mop it up.  

I wonder if I should just take a nap and then come back to 24hr TV later.  Even though I know it will be up for download tomorrow (or maybe within hours) it doesn't feel the same as watching it live on TV.  

I don't know what is wrong with me today.  It started so well... Maybe being around two lovely couples today... and getting an note from Stephen saying he's back...  Things never work out the way you want them to, eh?

Comments

[everystarrfall.livejournal.com]

-huggles- I think you need sleeeeeeeeep. It sucks when things that maybe wouldn't get to you that much just keep on piling on, one after another until you're ready to tear your hair out at the smallest thing. I had a day like that on Thursday so I've been there very recently.

I wish I had been able to watch it live on tv, too, and then yesterday all this drama happened with my mum and then our car broke down right on the freeway (actually it kind of did before we got on the freeway but my dad "fixed" it so we went on our way, only to have it suddenly get much worse). And taking care of that took so long that we weren't home until midnight or so and by that time I was absolutely exhausted. Ah well. It's not the same, but at least it'll be subbed (and probably fairly soon) and it'll be upload raw before that, so at least you'll still get to see it? I know that's not much of a consolation when you've had such a shitty day, though. =///

[trivialaffair.livejournal.com]

Sometimes life sucks and everything happens at once. Because it sucks. D:

I wish I could say something more useful but just hang in there. Taking a nap is always good too. I find that listening to Arashi on repeat cheers me up pretty quickly

[honeycorrupts.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry you're going through a tough day.

*HUGGLESKISSESBACKRUBS*

Sleep or fanfics will help.

Here, go read this.
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two. omg read two like now. I'll give you alittle hint now, there are kings + pretty boys.

[iaoiua.livejournal.com]

When it rains, it fucking pours. Seems like you're feeling better now, and I'm glad - but sometimes these days just come and all we can do is let it pass.