Where's the arc?

What the fuck is wrong with the world?  The weather systems seem to be all kinds of fucked up these days.  Have we finally doomed ourselves?  Is the atmosphere starting to fall around our ears?  It seems like it to me.  Another torrential thunderstorm that fucked up the trains pretty much all day and flooded a bunch of rivers.  I really hope it doesn't rain tomorrow, especially since I'll be in Hakone onsen-ing it up.  I need to do some... grooming tomorrow morning.  Like woah.  Nobody needs to see that.  I suppose that's a plus about sleeping with someone regularly: it makes you keep things neat and tidy.  Otherwise, it gets out of control.  Should be fun anyway.  It'll be Yvonne and her manpanion Tony, her two friends from Canada (who are here for someone's wedding?), Andy and me.  The idea was to do some trekking around there but if the weather is crap, we'll have to do something else.  I should bring the camera anyway.  And.... since I set the alarm for 5:30, I should go to bed now.  I fixed my saved game so I can continue saving the princess tomorrow and since I know what to do now, it shouldn't take that long.  I hope.  I don't want to be getting frustrated and yelling swears at my DS on the train tomorrow. :/  As entertaining as that might be...  

I want to enter some of my writing into a contest.  arashirabu should have some contests or something.  As good a community as it is -- it's self-sufficient and there is no wank -- the mods do nothing.  I emailed one of them about the mess of the tagging system yesterday and haven't heard back yet.  I suppose I could try contacting the others (there's like 4 altogether)... but there are no mod posts about anything.  It feels like a glorified message board.  

What's another word for depressed?

I wanted to watch 24hr TV, I really did.  I wanted to see Jun's drama even though the medical speak would go over my head but I'm only just able to tune in now.  It's probably around 2 hours so it must be nearly over.  Hakone was fun but I only had four hours of sleep.  The onsen was fun but a bit much?  What made things worse, is that my phone died.  I also forgot the earphone attachment so I'd have to depend on subtitles on my phone's TV but then the batteries died.  I had two bars this morning but it died around 4pm.  We left Odawara on the 7.20pm train but I didn't realize it takes 3 hours to get back from there.  I saw some guy watching on this portable TV.  I knew I would miss the first part, Aiba's task I think, but I thought I would make it back for the drama.  I kind of feel like... if i can't watch from the start, why watch at all?  It'll probably be subbed in the next week or two so I could watch it then. 

To make matters worse, the weather has been crappy beyong belief.  I don't think I've seen so much water fall from the sky, ever.  It's really fitting for this drama...

"I want to die."
"So die!  It would better if you did." 

i feel like I want to cry.  I feel depressed and a bit angry at having my plans screwed up (though centred around TV: I know how lame that is) and having lack of sleep and now, after I get home, I'm starving.

It was pouring buckets when I got off the train and eventhough I had an umbrella, it was fucking useless.  It was a cloth umbrella, which dries quickly, but is by no means waterproof so I was being dripped on all the way home.  I was also soaked from the knees down.  My shoes, my feet, my shorts...  And I get home and find my fucking kitchen soaked.  My fucking exhaust leaked all over the kitchen again.  It's still pouring so it must have been worse or someone came and covered it up sometime today.  I just can't bring myself to be bothered to mop it up.  

I wonder if I should just take a nap and then come back to 24hr TV later.  Even though I know it will be up for download tomorrow (or maybe within hours) it doesn't feel the same as watching it live on TV.  

I don't know what is wrong with me today.  It started so well... Maybe being around two lovely couples today... and getting an note from Stephen saying he's back...  Things never work out the way you want them to, eh?